Hearts and High Blood Pressure

My heart is not happy. My blood pressure is out of whack again. I'm going to the doc as soon as I can get in, but I wanted to say something about it.

It started about 3-4 weeks ago when I ran out of one of my meds and couldn't get any for 2 days. The pharmacy was closed when I finally got there on Sunday, so I had to wait another day to get it. I stopped in on the way to work on Monday and took one while they were ringing it up. I couldn't believe how rotten I felt after only 2 days.

Well, I've never really come back to myself since then. I've had chest pain, nausea, shoulder and arm pain, and neck pain. OK - Enough! I know what that means, but figured there were other reasons behind it - like usual! Every time I go to the docs with it, they tell me it's indigestion or gas, so I'm reluctant to spend my sparse funds on allopathic medical care when they can't face it square.

And recently the dizziness is back, so I started monitoring the blood pressure again - before meds it's really high, and after the meds (an hour) it's still not right. The resting rate is a little high, but not too bad, but the pumping rate is way high.

So, I'm going to the docs office today. I barely have enough $$ to eat, but I'm going.

Screw you all....

Imagine That!!!

Well, my blood pressure is better controlled, by taking my meds a fairly strict 12 hours apart. Imagine That!!! Docs don't tell you this stuff. You have to learn it on your own.

It took about 48 hours, but then the symptoms stopped. If you've ever had really high blood pressure, you know what I'm talking about - kind of being out of it, dizzy, not sure you know what's up, ringing in your ears, maybe a bloody nose... You get the picture.

It's a good thing the symptoms stopped, because my monitor machine went on the fritz. I changed the batteries to these great little guys that work fab in cameras, wireless mice, and other electronics. Now, the monitor won't read anything at all. No, I did NOT put the batteries in backwards - that was the first thing I checked. I'll take it to the pharmacy and have them look at it. I may need some more mainstream batteries for it - something with less power.

Ah well....

Day is good so far...

Blood Pressure went wacky...

I thought maybe it was the stress put myself under, but after careful examination, it seems that it was just too long between doses of my medicine, combined with the stress, that escalated it.

I've decided to try an experiment for a few days before I run to the Docs to fix it...

Take my meds roughly 12 hrs apart instead of on awakening and at bedtime. Sometimes, I have to get up really early, and my days go for close to 20 hours. That's too long between meds, so if I make it a 12 hr cycle, things should calm down.

I'll be doing a 10am-10pm cycle. I get up a lot earlier than that, and I'm often up at least another 2-3 hours at night, so this should work.

If nothing else, it will steady my blood pressure while I'm working through my stressful situation.

I have another 2 weeks to complete a major change in my work life - and with any luck and a lot of determination, it should be completed by the end of this week. I'll have to be on my toes for another 2 months after this, too, so that the habits I create now will become just that - habits.

So, keeping the BP under control really helps. Did I tell you the side effect of bouncing BP??? Emotional insanity. I become a basket case. The little things take on huge dimensions. Everything seems much more important than it really is.

God is in Charge. God knows what God is doing. I don't have to. And my biggest problem today is that I hate change. I hate to make new habits, a detour in my route, my cats acting weird, or running out of something I use all the time. Am I set in my ways? Yes. A resounding Yes! I know what works for me and what doesn't.

The broken parts though - it's so hard to let go of them...

Like an old friend, that broken habit or item takes up time or space in my life. If I let them go, what will happen? I'll be somehow less????

NO~ God always takes things away so that he can make room for something better.

And I am grateful that my life is so full that I have to let things go to "make room" for new things.

God Bless....
Have a good week...