Why I Blog Against Trump

I was thinking about why I do this in the face of relative anonymity while putting myself in harm's way....

It's a moral imperative. "The Only Thing Necessary for the Triumph of Evil is that Good Men Do Nothing."
Whether first stated by Edmund Burke, Charles Aked or John F. Kennedy, the quote is how I feel. I need to speak up and point out inconsistencies, illegalities, and manipulation. It's what I was educated to do.

I took Women's Studies. It is misnamed because the study is really about developing a social and political conscience.  It makes me pay attention and have an informed opinion about things. It taught me to research the assumptions, not swallow them whole. It taught me to think for myself. That's always dangerous to people in power.

If one doesn't remember history, one is doomed to repeat it.Nazi Germany didn't come out of nowhere. It was an economic reality caused by the treaty of Versailles after WWI, combined with a seeming lack of power by the populace. That sounds very familiar today. Instead of blaming the bankers and 1%, we, the other 99%, have been deflected to Muslims. "Divide and conquer" is an old strategy. It works. We've been divided and are looking for scapegoats, instead of paying attention to the real causes of our distress.

I'm also a minister in an obscure religious sect. That gives me a certain leeway to express my opinions. I don't have a "church" or "congregation" because I don't care to follow that path. I counsel and educate. That's my ministry. 

My tax status is that of an ordinary person. I have no tax breaks or special deductions. I file my tax paperwork every year just like the majority of citizens do, and make sure it's in by April 15th. If I owe anything, I pay.  I generally get a small refund. 

I hope to build a local business this coming year. That's all I will say on it at the moment since it's in the planning stages.  My vocal response to Trump may cause that to remain an unrealized dream.

So, speaking out is what I feel I need to do. It's important that I do not remain silent. No race or creed is responsible for this situation. No one group of people caused this mess. We all did. I will point out when we need to correct our course. That's what I feel called to do.
 

The Case for Trump Being Mentally Ill

I don't personally know Donald Trump. I don't need to. I've known too many people just like him over my lifetime.

It's an unfortunate truth of my life that I've known many persons with antisocial disorders. My mother had borderline personality disorder. My first husband was a "paranoid schizophrenic" and was quite volatile. My last husband was also inflicted with an antisocial personality disorder and gaslighted me. I knew a  woman who gaslighted me by saying I must have lied when she was the one who lied and tried to back out of the things she said and did. My mother also did that.

I am an empath. I'm a target for people with antisocial disorders.

My mother and I could never communicate because I didn't realize we weren't speaking the same language. English is my first language, as it was hers. However, there are so many words with multiple meanings and meanings that are implied without being spoken in the English language, that we could not communicate - mother and daughter, or not.

So, I am uniquely qualified to see these behaviors in a manipulative, narcissistic individual with megalomaniac tendencies when he or she comes to my attention. Therefore, I feel it is my duty to point out to others, who may not see or recognize the truth of things. I'm not a doctor or therapist, although I have a distinct way of understanding people of all walks of life. I put myself "in their shoes" by using my empathy. I see many sides of the every argument, so I rarely get into them.

Yet, I'm at odds with the world today because Trump is so far into the antisocial spectrum and seems to be fooling so many people. I know what he's doing. I can follow each step of the way and even anticipate some of his moves. I can identify each piece of the puzzle.

As with all antisocial personalities, the ones who see the tendencies are put in a position of defense. The antisocial person uses his charisma and manipulative skills to turn others against the empath. It's part of the skillset they are born with or learn along the way.

If you do any kind of research at all, you will find this to be true. I suggest you read "The Empathy Trap" by Jane McGregor. It explains this co-existence and the game to the uninitiated. Yes, it's dangerous, and yes, it's deadly. Recovery from the manipulation and gaslighting dished out by the antisocial person can make the victim commit suicide. I know, because I almost did.

In the case of Donald Trump, he's manipulated his way into the white house. At least within spitting distance as of this writing. The Electoral College still has to confirm him, which will take place in less than three days. Or not.

I hope not. I hope they (the EC) will make another choice. I don't particularly like some of the alternatives, but even if I don't like them, they are less dangerous than Trump.

Now, Ms. Kellyanne Conway has said that anyone who criticizes Donald Trump will have to "face the consequences" for that. Well, I for one welcome their efforts to dole out consequences. That will show the world just who and what they elected. I know I'm on the firing line in this. I'm not the only one. I call out "conflict of interest" or "unconstitutional" or "against the law" on a regular basis. However, those labels are responses to research done by others.

When I talk about Trump's personality disorder, that is based on personal experience. I recognize it because I've lived it. I don't wish for anyone to live through what I did. Yet, we as a country are living the beginning stages of it right now. If that puts me on the firing line with the Trump administration, so be it. They may try to shut me up, but I hope my words live on regardless of their actions. I hope my words spread to every corner of the world.

I have not and will not "threaten" Trump. That's not my job. I only hope he does not take possession of the highest office of this country. He will hand everything over to Putin and destroy our sovereignty and safety. He will allow our economy to collapse by his behaviors and lack of understanding. He will allow this country to be held ransom by anyone and everyone who ever had dealings with his businesses. He will ignore every cautionary message from the people who are in place to keep us all safe. All because he thinks he's smarter than everyone else. That is pure hogwash!

There is NO person who is smart enough to know everything! Only God can know everything. And Donald Trump is not God! He just thinks he is.

THAT is mental illness.

There is a "letter to electors"  that was published recently. This letter outlines the public policy reasons that Trump should not be in office. Whether the electors choose Trump or not, the list is daunting. Add that to his mental illness, and you have a man dangerous to the globe, not just America.

THE EMPEROR HAS NO CLOTHES

OK. I'm a coward. I accept it. I want to die at ground zero in the first blast, not linger with radiation sickness for weeks. I don't like pain.

I don't watch news much, or pay attention to all the hate and anger in the world. Not because I am immune to it, but because it triggers so much anxiety and pain in me. I act out of fear and pain after a dose of "reality" and the news. I live as though I am the one throwing the stone and the one have the stone hit me. I see both sides. It's exhausting, so I choose to ignore as much as I can. But at the same time, I can't just condone what I see going on around me by inaction. I must stand up to things and object to things.

So, I see Donald Trump turning his back on the people who voted for him by every word and deed. We used to put people like him away. He's a danger to himself and others. Now, we applaud him - well not me, but people around me do...

So, I see a world in which a complete fraud has been perpetrated on the US of A. It sickens me. The "draining of the swamp" is instead packing it full of the very vultures who have the most to gain. They've already gained a lot.

But a fraud is a fraud is a fraud. The Emperor has no clothes. He's running around naked and everyone is acting like it's all OK. It isn't OK. Things are not right.

People like Trump used to be hauled off in straitjackets to the looney bin. That's where he belongs. He's insane.

Unfortunately for the rest of us, he is the head of the country - or on his way to becoming that.

We already have proven voter fraud in 5 machines. The seals have been tampered with and the votes nullified. All the votes. We need not just a recount, but a re-vote with UN oversight. In the four states where there is fraud, we need to do this. Not universally. Give a week for all the early voters, everybody who voted, to vote again. Three UN overseers in each polling place, and strict control of the machines.

Let's see what really goes on. Trump may not be the winner. His swamp may be drained well, yet.

MY STATEMENT TO TRUMP, PENCE, PRIEBUS, BANNON, et al

I don't know why God made it possible for such a predator as yourself to come to power. I think it was your insecurity and manipulation that caused it. I think that God wants all the world to see what it's like to be  taken advantage of by a narcissistic predator such as yourself.

I will never bow down to you or give you my approval. You and people like you have taken too much from me all my life, and I refuse. You have manipulated and twisted every situation and every mind so that people don't realize what and who you are.

I have lived under that type of gaslighting.
I survived.

I have lived under that kind of manipulation.
I survived.

I have grown up watching masters at manipulation, narcissists like you, take every situation and turn it into something sordid and ugly. I have watched as women of worth and power were reduced to tears and shredded self-esteem. I have been forced to watch this because I didn't think I had any power. It had been done to me, as well.

But now I know I have power. More power than you will ever have. I have the power to refuse you. I have the power to withhold my approval. It will infuriate you. You will lash out. You might be in a position to physically hurt me or even kill me. But I will win. My approval will never be yours. My trust of my spirit and my gut will win.

My spirit will survive.

What Trump Means to Me....

What a Trump presidency tells me is that I'm not welcome in this country anymore.

I was born into a world that was rapidly changing, accepting blacks, whites and LGBT persons; accepting of religions other than Christianity; welcoming, though guarded against, immigrants from all over the world. The ballot was printed in 21 languages and alphabets, so everyone could participate who was eligible.

Today, I know that world is dead. Trump being elected means that people like me, people who are different in any way, are not welcome in America anymore.

I was a girl child, and from the cradle, I was used as a sex toy for men. When I grew up a little bit and "didn't want to play anymore," I was tossed away. I've made my way since then in a slow, pondering way because I had no guidance and many obstacles. I had little support because I was a girl and no money behind me.

I've watched as this country has come apart at the seams, with hate, anger and the war of advantages between the haves and have-nots.

Today, with a new morning, the Republican party holds control of all three branches of government. This means that all the safety nets of the last 100 years will be undone. No more social security, no more child labor laws, no more medicare, no more women voting. We will be returned to the turn of the 1900s, when white men held all the control.

Problem is, the country is no longer run by white men. They just don't know it yet. They coerce women to do their will, force Christianity down everyone's throat, push through pipelines over waterways, cut trees, and destroy wilderness.

All for money. You can't eat money. You can't drink money. And if you don't pay your workers a living wage, they can't buy what you sell. The whole house of cards will come down.

I'm not welcome here. I was born here, but I had an obvious disadvantage. I was a girl. What about everyone else who is not welcome here? Is slavery coming back? Sounds like it. And LGBT? Better hide it.