Unemployed again....

I got laid off today. I hate being unemployed. When I screw up, then maybe I deserve to lose my job. But this time, nope!

I got this job because I have a certain zip code. That's what it is. They needed somebody from my zip code to qualify as a certain kind of federal contractor. So, I live here, and it is what it is.

Well, there have been some changes in personnel, and they hired 2 people from this zip code for full time jobs. I didn't even get a glance for one of them.

It isn't because I'm a bad employee, but because I lose my voice every day. I have really bad asthma and allergies around here and I lose my voice. I can't pay for the meds they want me to take for it, and I hate the side effects. My body can't handle it. So, I lose my voice. No biggie for me - I hate talking on the phone anyway.

So, I was ignored for the call-out jobs, and that's what it is, too.

On top of that, I was offered a fill-in part time job doing some research at the courthouse, since I was already working downtown. Without this job (the one I just lost), I'll have to make other parking arrangements, but anything I pay out (not reimbursed) is deductible from my taxes, and I know how to keep track of it all. I don't know if I'll get the second job or not, but it would be nice. It has the same number of hours, but it pays a little better.

I'm in school, and I have Tuesday and Thursday morning class. I can't miss the class. Next semester, all my classes are evening classes, so school will be much more "work hour friendly" than this semester. But for now, I need those mornings for school.

At least, this time, I can file for unemployment. It won't be for much, but it will be a little bit.

I guess I'll do my homework this weekend, then just spend the next couple of days cleaning my house really well. It could use it, and the cats will like having me home.

Yeah, right now my attitude is OK, but who knows what it will be like later.

Another good thing is that the bills are paid - all except the house payment anyway. I was able to really pay stuff up and off with the last student loan check. So I'm not doing too bad. I have money in the bank and another paycheck coming. That will be the "waiting week" for unemployment, and the following week I should get a small stipend. Very small.

Overwhelm and News

It used to be that we read the newspaper in the morning, and caught the news around suppertime. We could go about our days and pray for the unfortunates we heard about, and otherwise deal with our days and our lives.

Now, with 24/7 coverage, we are bombarded with the bad news all the time. We have the morning programs, 24/7 coverage, hourly updates on the radio and TV... We can't escape it. Everywhere we go, we are bombarded with the bad news.

It's a lot like "1984" with the TV blaring and the cameras everywhere, "Big Brother" watching us.

I have to tune out. I must, for my sanity. I can pray for the unfortunates, and donate to Red Cross, but there is really nothing else I can do. I don't choose to feel bad because there are people in the world having problems. Whether of their own making or not!

Wars are of their own making - Revolts and Uprisings are of their own making. Natural disasters - earthquakes, tsunamis, volcanos, those are not of their making. Nothing I can do in any case. I don't have to feel bad. It may be my turn in an hour.

So, I choose to tune out. Join me, why don't you????

Earthquake in Japan

I've been watching news reports all day about the terrible earthquake and resultant tsunamis today. I just send prayers and love to the victims.

Maybe this is the "Rapture" that everybody talks about - God taking home massive numbers of souls in various disasters around the world. Nasty way to go about it, but less "showy" than that depicted in the movies.

Initial Results - Health Appt

I saw the doc yesterday. Changed up the meds, and I go back in a week. The EKG showed no heart damage, and my pulse rate gave the machine fits - very low.

They are scheduling a stress test - where I get plugged up and walk a treadmill for a few minutes. Good workout if nothing else. It will show if there are any blockages or narrowings in the arteries, causing the heart to not get enough oxygen when I'm active.

I've lost 8 pounds, so my home scale isn't a complete liar. It's not very accurate, so I don't believe it most of the time.

Still have a long way to go...

Hearts and High Blood Pressure

My heart is not happy. My blood pressure is out of whack again. I'm going to the doc as soon as I can get in, but I wanted to say something about it.

It started about 3-4 weeks ago when I ran out of one of my meds and couldn't get any for 2 days. The pharmacy was closed when I finally got there on Sunday, so I had to wait another day to get it. I stopped in on the way to work on Monday and took one while they were ringing it up. I couldn't believe how rotten I felt after only 2 days.

Well, I've never really come back to myself since then. I've had chest pain, nausea, shoulder and arm pain, and neck pain. OK - Enough! I know what that means, but figured there were other reasons behind it - like usual! Every time I go to the docs with it, they tell me it's indigestion or gas, so I'm reluctant to spend my sparse funds on allopathic medical care when they can't face it square.

And recently the dizziness is back, so I started monitoring the blood pressure again - before meds it's really high, and after the meds (an hour) it's still not right. The resting rate is a little high, but not too bad, but the pumping rate is way high.

So, I'm going to the docs office today. I barely have enough $$ to eat, but I'm going.

Screw you all....

Funky Dream

I had a dream about the classifieds. Not today's classifieds, but those of maybe 60 years ago???

The ad read "Joy than time fridge. Keeps time! Observes Memorial Day..."

That means it's cheap to free, runs intermittently, and doesn't work on hot days.

Sound familiar?

Have a good one....