Sick AGAIN!!!

I hate this! Another sinus infection.

And I'm still not sleeping. It seems that being wakened at 3am for 15 months has had a permanent effect on my sleep cycle. I now cannot sleep through the night, and it's always 3am when I wake up. Most of the time I can't get back to sleep, so I'm falling asleep at inappropriate times - like DRIVING!

Very dangerous and scary.

Well, nap time now. Talk to y'all later...

Part-time Work

The part-time from the agency came through. I have a courthouse date today.

I also got a couple of assignments for secret shopping - did you know that's real? I was sure it was fake until a friend told me about it a few years ago. I finally got hooked up with the "real" folks, and have a couple of assignments there.

So, I should be able to pay car insurance and car payment - maybe keep the cats in food this month.

Utilities - not so much.

Bills - not on the radar yet.

Taking a little trip...

I'm going on a little trip on April 15 - to see my family. I'm taking the "Megabus" that is like an express Greyhound service, but by a different company. I'm going to DC, since that's nearest their house. It's an almost 9-hour bus ride. I'm gonna be sore when I get there!

They have wi-fi on the bus, and I'll be taking the laptop, so we can do a Skype convo with the other family members with my camera setup. We are doing a remote-memorial on our end for a beloved member who passed away.

I expect it will be an adventure. We'll see....

POST SCRIPT -
My trip got moved to May 7th.

Blood Sugar and PTSD Triggers

Man! I hate this being insulin resistant! My blood sugar can dive in an instant.

And that sets me up for PTSD triggers to just eat my lunch!

I forgot to eat breakfast this morning. Actually, I ran out of time. Instead of eating, I applied to a couple of internships so maybe I could get some $$ coming in.

So, I ran to class, sans breakfast. Class was OK, and since I was near the YMCA, I decided to go over and get set up, since I can do that for free because of my health clinic setup.

Well, I got over there, and the parking lot was FULL! I mean, there were people driving around looking for spaces...

So, I left, trigger started...

I got cut off by a huge truck in the Old City where I usually turn, so I took the next street. A one-way street, going my way. A light blue SUV decides to come right at me -- going the wrong way mind you! He put me into the loading dock on my right, and I barely missed the concrete! PIG! I really hate SUVs and their drivers in this town!!!

So, I make it to the street I need and it's clear, so I pull out. I decided that any SUV that got in my way, I'll be honking at. I think it's time I turned into a NY driver - sitting on my horn all the time.

If they won't put their cell phones away, then they are really blind or something. I'm so sick of the way they think they own the roads! Always going over the line into my lane, not paying attention to where that behemoth vehicle is going, which is a death-trap and a deadly weapon, all at the same time. My horn is now primed!

So, I got home, made a breakfast smoothie. I dropped the my bag of frozen strawberries on the floor, so I had to wash them off and put them in the fridge, instead of in the freezer. Just a mess all around! By this time, I'm shaking, my blood sugar is so low!

I sucked that thing back and it took less than 5 minutes for the protein to start hitting. I feel much better now.

My PTSD is bad enough, with the startle reflex, the irritability, and the safety/security/body issues. Add the insulin resistance, low blood sugar and then falling asleep after I've eaten and it spikes, and yes, there are serious things going on.

In case you think I'm not talking to my docs about it - think again! They haven't found anything!!! Yeah! The 3-month test - the A1C test - shows nothing wrong. Yet I experience this wild swing on a daily basis.

Oh yeah, that stress test--> My heart is fine. They think it's "indigestion" again. At least they gave me nitro tabs, so when my heart goes nuts, I have them.