Growing Back Into Myself

I had a great session with my therapist yesterday, clearing out a lot of garbage from my childhood. Not a lot of insight, but a lot of clearing the air. I told some secrets, and allowed him to get to know me. We talked about my growing up in Los Angeles and why I have the insights I do into the area and industries of Los Angeles. We talked a little about my schooling, and where I hung out as a kid.

That work cleared the way for a lot of stuff today. I want to be the person I was meant to be, instead of the person I was expected to be by all those folks who "knew me when." That means I need to go within.

I also want to be more in touch with my spirit. So, I'm taking today to re-connect with myself.

We talked a little about Deepak Chopra. He was on PBS over the weekend, and it was kind of like a powerpoint presentation - slides with words on them, narrated by Deepak Chopra. Interesting, and I yelled at the TV a couple of times. He gets it almost, but not quite, right.

I don't know where it comes from, exactly, but perhaps my training: Instead of being so worried about and interested in "how the world affects one," take a look instead at "how one affects the world."

Thoughts are physical things. A person with enough mental and emotional energy can effect a deep change in the world. That's why I listen when the Dalai Lama speaks. He has that energy. What he says makes a change in the ether of the unverse.

The Catholic Pope may want to be that effective, but each Pope is imbued with only his human spirit, and while he may want to be larger and have a deeper effect, the Dalai Lama seems to have the energy and the Pope does not.

While the Pope is supposed to be the re-embodiment of Peter, it doesn't always work that way. He's supposed to be touched by the Holy Spirit (whether I believe it or not, my thought isn't where it counts).  I think the Catholic Church lost something along the way.

So, getting away from that debate, let's look at the individual.

When a person, individual person, has a deep desire for something, the way a person thinks about that desire is important, but the desire itself has energy. The way a person thinks about the desire (lack or attraction) will effect the universe in such a way to repel or attract. Thinking "lack" produces more lack. Thinking "attraction" produces more attraction. So thoughts are physical and have a physical manifestation in the ether of the universe, which then becomes material in the material universe.

Deep shit, right? But it's true, too.

So, I decided to look at what I want to see my world reflect back to me. No, I don't like what I see today. But I know that my thoughts put this stuff into action. It's one of the laws of creation. So, my fear, brought about by my concentrating on what I feared, manifested that thing, bringing about today's world. Everybody can do this. It isn't rocket science. Let me see if I can simplify this....

If I fear being broke (lack of funds), I worry about being without and concentrate on my lack. By concentrating on my lack of funds I bring about more lack because I can't let go and share my meager purse, which might allow more to come in. It becomes worse because I cannot invest in the future or even the present. Eventually, I stagnate with nothing.

It's a self-defeating and self-creating circle. It feeds on itself and grows bigger....

Let's turn it around....

I desire abundance, and I notice the abundance coming into my life and express gratitude. I share my abundance and I feel gratitude that I have abundance I can share so my abundance multiplies. This abundance might be funds, food, shelter, clothes or anything else.

This is how I grow in a different direction. In no way do I even notice lack in the second example....

The universe fills a void. It rushes into the vacuum. Where we concentrate, that is the vacuum. So, what vacuum do I want filled?

Today, I am looking at who I want to be in the world I want to see around me. That's another spiritual law, to "act as if" something was already manifest....

IF my world had no Donald Trump in it;
IF my world had a Congress that worked for the people;
IF my world provided a decent living for all it's citizens;
IF universal, cradle-to-grave healthcare were a reality for all persons;
IF my world had a beautiful environment that included clear skies and clean water;
IF my world were truly a loving, safe, and benevolent place;
IF war did not exist;
IF there were no people trying to hurt other people;
IF women, men, and LGBTQ persons were all equal in the sight of law and religion;
IF race and ancestry was ignored by all;
IF money had never been invented;
IF (fill in your blank);

I would be. _______________________

This is my task today. To become more of that unknown quantity....